If there's one area where I am not confident as an actor, it's in my ability to control my emotions. I am The. Worst. Ever. Up until now it's worked out alright, but I'm a little bit nervous for that day when Mr. Howard tells me he needs more and I can't give it to him because my tear ducts have conveniently decided to dry up.
On the flip side, I always seem to cry when I don't want/need it to happen. I spoke in church on Sunday (we Mormons have no paid clergy, so we supply the sermons at church ourselves) - which is not something I dread. I actually like public speaking, so... Anyway, I forgot how emotional I get when speaking in church. I think I spent probably half of my time just trying to compose myself as I was speaking. Luckily I threw in enough humorous anecdotes to counteract the awkwardness. But it's not just spiritually-base situations that bring out my inner cry-baby. I cry during movies, speeches, The Food Network, particularly moving insurance commercials... All. The. Time. And here's the thing - I don't just cry when something is sad or touching (sobbed during that one scene in Toy Story 3 - you know the one), but if something is just sort of emotionally heightened. I even cry if the music in a movie is particularly moving. It's absurd.
Maybe I just need to trick myself. You know, whenever I don't want to cry I'll just tell my brain that it's actually really important that I cry in that moment, and if I do need to cry, I'll just picture that PSA with the abused animals...